on noticing…

Drawing of my new teapot

…what I’ve done.

I do a lot. I do. I’m sure my image of myself has always been of someone who does very little. Perhaps that’s why I have always been so driven. Perhaps that’s why I’ve ended up with ME/CFS. I’m changing that. I’m learning the importance of noticing (and noting) what I’ve done.

Rather than always focusing on what is left to do, we need to give ourselves a hand for what we’ve already done.

Julia Cameron, Walking in this World, P 204.

This is another important step for me in learning about Sustainable Creativity. My list might include “had a bath”, it might include “cooked my breakfast,” it might include “took a long nap,” or even “made a drawing,” or “sent The Beany to the printers,” or “had tea from my new teapot.” All count. All make a difference. All are part of me being creative.

Yesterday I bought a notebook especially to keep my list in. Every night, energy allowing, I’m going to remember what I’ve done and NOTICE that I do do things. That I am living my life.